man I got no guts.I mean, I have no backbone, I mean, I don't have the courage. yea. okay.

*sigh*
He.
has a totally different schedule than me.
I want to see his face
to feel the rush of...shy-ness? eagerness?excitment?
I dont know......
I haven't seen his face, or heard his voice, for nearly 2 weeks now.
Official, on Thursday.
Will I see him?
I hope I do.
and I hope this doesnt get out.
please?
the last time I saw him, two weeks ago,
I don't know if he was tired
or if he was covering his face
so he wouldn't have to look at me.
GRR the teenage heart.
On the bright side, I think I did really well on my showcase today, my mom thinks if it was competitive, I would've won.
Note: my mom takes music SERIOUSLY and is not biast b/c im her daughter. In fact, she helps train me to be better. lol.
One thing the aujudicator said?(I can use it against any physed teacher now, and get the AJT to confirm...)
Singing is a sport!
bwhahaha
all the muscles in our mid-section are way stronger than they look man!
and not to mention when we sing it sounds nice lol.
This only applies to ppl who think anyone who doesnt do sports and only art are nerds and are gonna end up fat one day.
Well, im fat, and proud!
well...
not really..
*sigh*
he came online again.
to talk or not to talk?
I think it might be akward
it was last time
so im frightened
how is it,
that I feel so nervous
before and AFTER i sing
but not when im singing?
and that
I could sing in front of a thousand people
and not feel nervous or mess up big,
but am afraid to talk to someone
over internet no less?!
=_=
gr...
asking advice now! wahhhrrg.