another something

My eyes are dry

My heart is calm

I sing a melody

without a single negative thought

invading my mind

I woke up this morning

and instead of thinking about you

I smiledat the sun rising up behind the houses

and shared a laugh before anything else.

I felt so happyI was dancing on the spot

and watching the rain sparkle down onto the earth

making rainbows in front of my eyes

reflecting the beauty of the morning.

And thoughmy heart is still broken from before

and my mind still feels like its been torn apart

and thoughmy friends did offer to punch him in the face

and my best friend tried her best to get some type of revenge

and failed, I must say

and thoughI gave up on him

I gave up on wanting to be with someone

for now anyways

and I gave up on imagining the impossible

dreaming those dreams that could really only happen in your mind

who said I can't feel happy?

If you disagreeI say

Here I am

finally happy

to be free

and away from all that jazz

of so-called love

no longer falling asleep

with those ridiculous dreams

in front of my eyes

free from the pain

that always come from those

"lovers"

I can finally smile on my own

and laugh at my own mistakes

without thinking about

if YOU thought it would be stupid

or not

or be just to weird

or not

I can finally make decisions on my own

and live a life close to what I want it to be

I try to hold on to the great moments that we've shared

but what sucks the most

is thatwe barely have any

since we barely did

anything

my heart used to race at the sight of you

now I see you like I would all my guy friends:

A good guy

with a different personality from everyone else

and a person I could talk to

without any trouble

But as your state as being my

"lover"

it's over

and though this sounds really mean

I hope and will make sure

you will never be in that position

ever again.

Because I have finally found my place

I have finally found my mind

My heart is at rest at last

Thank the everlasting God.